This is what V-Tach looks like my friends...

Not good... so what you see from left to right is a PVC (PreVentricular Contraction then a beat although it is distorted (b/c of the way the electrical activity in his heart was traveling) ... then there's a PVC and BAM he goes in to VT (or V-Tach or Ventricular Tachycardia) with a rate in the 230's... which is life threatening... but my patient stayed awake and alert during this episode... which was fortunate... but we were able to shock him out to a stable fucked up rhythm instead... which was more like a beat then a PVC, a beat, then a PVC, a beat, then a PVC... still not good but I'll take it!

A Memory

My family - my whole family - went out to Vegas for New Years one year. My mom was so excited that we were ALL going that she bought everyone those luggage identifiers. Only she bought gay pride ones and didn't realize it... but that doesn't make the story funny...

What makes the story funny is my brother is gay an she didn't know it...

In Memory Of DR. John Pryor

... Seek always to do some good, somewhere...

Even if it's a little thing, do something for those who need help, something for 

which you get no pay but the privilege of doing it. For remember, you don't live in a world all 

your own. Your brothers are here too. 

No One Is Awake At 3 A.M.

I miss my cousin, David. He was always awake. 

There used to be a few people I could call at 3 A.M. but I'm not sure about now...

Hmmm. 

An Animal, Perhaps?

There is an animal behind the wall of my fireplace. 

I don't know what to do about it. 

It's been there since yesterday. I'm guessing it is too dark for it to find it's way out. 

It sounds like it is fighting to get up b/c I hear a fight of scatches and tumbles and banging. 

I don't want the damn thing to die in there. 

I feel bad for it. 

Any ideas?

I'm so excited!

I'm getting my last reference letter that I need in order to apply for Anesthesia school! That's all I need and then I can send my application in! 

Yeah! 

I'm so excited! 

Cross your fingers you guys!

Just A Quick Note Before I Eat My Yummy Dinner!

It has been quite the adjustment learning to live alone. 

I've never done it before. I lived with my parents and then Kev and I moved in together when I was 24. 

Now I'm 32 and I find myself in this place alone...and feeling alone and a little scared. When I was alone before, I wasn't lonely - I guess now because this is real I find myself feeling lonely for the first time in my life.